LIGHT UP YOUR OWN SKY

Thursday, July 13, 2006 ;

9:36:00 PM

We came in 12th for the poly 50.. I'm proud to say that we got position 12th for the race the fact that we had only trained once for the competition.. It was a 30km relay and during the race, I think I pushed lots of people.. Everyone are pushing one another with some elbowing each one's face. haha... At the beginning, I reallie didn't perform up to my standard, only manage to perform during the last 25laps of the race..After running the 1st lap,I felt a burning sensation in my right thigh.. Luckily there was counter-pain which numbs my thigh, allowing me to continue the race.. after running about 10 laps, I was feeling breathless with zero energy.. However after some encouragment and those jia you that remind in my mind,suddenly I felt a pump of energy entering my body.. Then I ran like I nv ran before during the last 25 rounds.. Overtaking dozens of ppl whenever I can.. haha..

Today lesson was quite slack.. I was late for the 10am lecture.. Onli reached the lecture hall at 10;15am, learned sth about balanced delta , star circuit.. I hate this module, circuit theory and analyse.. kill so much of my brain cells...then went to foodcourt 1 to hav lunch.. Was planning to make use of the an hour of lunch break to eat n then hav a short nap but WE spend about 30mins to search for seats and to Q for our food.. ARrgz.. After lunch, it was math.. Today we started on the topic on Arithmetic progression and Geometric progress, AP &GP.. quite easy man.. Haha.. after math, BI(biomedical Instrumentation) lecture, 40 students were in the lecture hall, the other 40 were absent.. n out of the 40 ppl who are inside the lecture hall, 10 are sleeping, 10 are chatting, 5 are playing with their lap-top, 12 are listening to Mp3 with only 3 students paying attention to the lesson.. Haha.. I had a great chat in the lecture, joking with jing jing, siti, nabila, joshua in the lecture. On my way home saw yi long and cheng ning.. then went to JP with cheng ning to buy my hair spary.. I lost mine yesterday.. think I haven been to JP for ages, there are now so mani new shops.. ya, we went to explore the new K pool in jurong point.. Pathetic man.. it jus look like a cemetry, with only 2 people inside playing pool, with those concrete flooring..

Gonna hav some rest and prepare for tml BI quiz...

P.S SHould I numb myself with works again??

i lit my sky--

Monday, July 10, 2006 ;

10:59:00 PM

Yoz, here's my second post of the day.. Ended sch at 4:30pm.. Wanted to go back home but the train towards boon lay was full.. Since I was feeling fan today, decided to go to cathay to catch a movie to brighten up myself..

Watched scary movie 4, the story was quite lame, but kinda funny during some scenes in the movie. Today was the second time in 4days that I'm watching a movie alone.. Haha..

Every sec, they are Hundreds of ppl getting together and Hundreds of couples breaking up.. It doesn't reallie matter whether a couple can be together forever n ever, wat method the most was the beautiful memories and the true love that was build in the relationship since someday, one of them will definitely leave one and other(jus a method of time) due to thousands of reasons.

To say U like or Love a person is easy as saying is always easier then it's done. If U reallie like a person, not onli u sense the feeling of loving that person, show that U reallie care about her. U must be sensitve to her feelings, love her heart and feeling as much as u love the person, but definitely not those blinded love due to her appearance. A promise is a promise, though a promise is jus a promise, but hav u wonder how much hurt one will feel if u broke a promise which ones think that U will fullfill it in this entire lfie. To fulfill a promise for the entire life, It's reallie hard, bitterly hard at times.. Therefore and somehow, when people made promises in front of me, I tell myself I will nv blame them if they made empty promises.. At least, I won't feel sad or watever if they reallie break the promises, though I always hope that she won't la..

i lit my sky--

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12:42:00 PM

Italy had won the World cup for the 4th time in the history.. Had the feeling that Italy will win the world cup, but inside my heart I'm supporting france, hoping that they will win the world cup. The match was tied at 1-1 after some exciting actions in the 1st&2nd half of the match. BUT I fall asleep during the extra-time and penatly shoot-out. It was the heavy pouring that woke me up at 5am. waking up at 5am, I onli manage to see Italy lifting the trophy up high in front of their fans.

Sat, after work, went to cine to catch the actions between Germany and Portugal... 3-1 was the score, with Germany winning the match.. the atmosphere over there was good. Every time Ronaldo got the ball, there'll be someone in the crowd saying that he's a diver, cheater n etc.. HAha.. Onli regret was that Figo came in as a sub only at the 77 mins, which was the last match that he's playing for his country. After the match, went to to Mac to eat breakfast, b4 taking the train back home. Slept at 8:30am and woke up at 11:30am. Jus 3hrs of sleep and I hav to get up to go 2 the national library to find some books.. Sianz.. Tiring.. Then after that, went back to Cathay to submit my pay slip. Then went to secret recipe and crystal jade to hav sth with Nichelle b4 heading back home..

These days sth I am reallie feeling veri "FAN".. I can't understand Y I am feeling like this and I dunno y.. Will I die of tireness? cause I'm realllie reallie tired.. For the previous lecture, I slept for 1hr inside the 2hr lecture.. haiz.. I reallie wan to numb myself.. But how can I? numb my feelings by digging into work? Some friend of mine even told me she had tried numbing herself by trying to die.. But I think It's stupid la.. Had a thought of numbing my feelings with a litre of vodka, but it's stupid too, I will not feel better but a terrible headache and hangover.. Jus hope that as days go by, things will get better ba...

i lit my sky--

Tuesday, July 04, 2006 ;

11:13:00 PM

Quite a time didn't update my blog.. Hav been quite busy during this period of time. I shouldn't hav been busy cause I onli did a few things , yet I couldn't find enough time for myself.. I onli watched some movies, squashed, worked, went out during these few weeks.. Didn't even study at all. Pheww, got my examination results, was horrible.. Phew, from now onwards I shall put in efforts and concentration on my studies...

Next week I will be running in the poly-50, an annual event held in SP.. In at team, there are 7 guys and 3 gals and if I'm not wrong, we'll hav to run 30km to complete the race.. Arrgz, tiring.. Today was the 1st time where we prepared for the competition.. Ran.. So tiring.. Feel tha I'm getting older.. ageing liao..

later Italy will be playing against Germany at 3am, wanted to watch the match but tml I'm having lesson at 8am, so can't watch.. haiz... But in my dreams, I will pray that Germany will lose.. haha... N I hoped that france will manage to beat portugal to enter the final..

Anyway, tml I gonna send my hp for repair, cause there's some problem with the keypad, so right now I'm using a lousy phone, no camera 1.. But nvm, can sms n call can already.. These few days I hav been quite unlucky.. when I'm feeling unlucky, everything that I do so unsucessful.. BUT since yesterday I think my bad luck had gone away.. because of an incident in the bus.. haha...

Y couldn't I stay in the world where I was cheerful, smiling, laughing like I was years ago, this is the question which I ask myself during these days.. I hate this feeling, it's reallie feels hurting to stuff my worries n troubles inside my soul... Since yesterday, I told myself that I shouldn't hav those feelings anymore.. I must be a happier person.. Haha.. I would console my friends, cheer them up when there are down, to see their smile back on their face is pleasant. I shalln't show my sad sad face anymore..

Actually today I also dunno wat am I writing.. my english is reallie lousy.. Wanna express how I feel , also cannot express it well.. I'm feeling so frustraed with myself.. I dun hav the criteria to be a wonderful bf, I dun hav looks.. I'm not rich.. I'm not educated enough n etc...

GOOd night to everyone.. Gonna try to figure how to do by report for my module...
Tml will definitely be a better day for me.. : )

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