Monday, October 16, 2006 ;
12:16:00 AM
Came across an article on what can u do if u only hav 6mths to live? These is wat the article said..
1.)1st thing rmb, u are not dead.
2.)Recognise tt ur body is only a part of who u are. u are greater than the sum of yr physical parts. so dun be preoccupied with ur body or illness.
3.)watch the returns of simpsons.
4.)Laugh
5.)However, avoid using humor to put yrself down.
6.)Purchase a notebook
7.)Record ur anger and frustrations. U can gain distance and perspective by writing down what u are going through
8.)Talk openly about ur illness, dun keep what u are going through bottled up inside. dun shut out other people. Dun isolate urself.
9.)Let someone to feed you peeled, seedless grapes.
10.)Resist the temptation to think of urself as useless;belittling urself will only lead 2 depression.
11.)Remember no one can make you feel inferior without yr consent.
12.)Be useful. Set Goals for urself. Even if they r small ones like cutting out some newspaper articles you've been meaning to save.
13.)Start reading a book tt you've always wanted to read.
14.)Come to terms with the fact that you may not be fully physically fit again.
15.)Learn to pray
16.)Settle financial matters like CPF and insurance
17.)Mourn,grieve, n cry for urself.ordinarily we think of mourning for our parents and our loved ones, but not for ourselves.Crying helpes u gradually come to accept the end: the irrevocable fact tt all living things die.
18.)Tell someone the story of ur life,sparing no details.
19.)Hav an entire tub of ice-cream.
20.)Love urself.Be gentle, patient,and be kind to urself.love urself the way ur parents loved u when u were a child.
21.)Ask the people whom you've wronged to forgive you.
22.)Forgive others.
23.)Forgive ur parents.
24.)Forgive urself.
25.)Identify behaviours u want to change, change them.
Life is precious.. Really wish tt life can always be as simple as wat it was when we were young, where we are true to our friends without any intention.. But in such a practical modern envioroment, I doubt life will be simple.. However I sincerely hope tt I can live life to the fullest, help ppl when I can..
i lit my sky--
Saturday, October 14, 2006 ;
12:13:00 AM
Recently, quite a few of my friends had fallen sick.. So peeps pls do take care of yr health.. Drink more water, hav plenty of rest.. Most importantly, do not excercise at outdoor during hazy days where the PSI is more than 100+.. Recovered from fever,flu,headache and Diarrhoea on tuesday after visited doctor Soh on Monday.. Had a day of MC so didn't went to sch on Mon.. Clinics and distributor of masks must be earning much more $$ then b4.. They hav Indonesia to thanks for, for the free flow of Indonesia 100% pure, fresh and FOC of thick smoke. Lol.. But Seriously, I hope that they sky in Singapore will be clear of smoke and haze as soon as possible.
I recieved a new mp3 thanks to urmmmmmm-hmmmm,u know who u are right?.. Xie Xie ni...Thanks You veri the much.. thanks.. it's a 2GB Zen V plus.. Hehe.. Can stores my favorites songs , photos and video inside le.. hope tt this mp3 will be my great companion in poly.. n Anyway oops, I dropped it once already... I must reallie learn to be careful...
Saw Stefanie lastest album at Music Junction 2 days ago.. it comes in two versions.. One verison costs $18.95 but consists of onli 20 songs whereas the other version costs $53.95 but it come with 60 songs (heard tt it also come with a photo album).. So right now I'm having a dilemma, to buy which verison of the ablum.. Wanna buy the album with 60 songs as it can be added to my collection of Stefanie cd though some of it had been missing but it's the costs that is restricting me to buy ,resulting a dilemma for me to make a choice.. Will give a thought on which version to buy on someday..
Went out with Nichelle today.. Hey,Thanks for ur accompany for the day.. : ) went to play the photohunt in the arcade but couldn't manage to set a high score cause the high score is reallie high.. lol.. Had Swensen.. Had the fries, wings ( quite nice.. thumbs up) and banana split.. Hehe.. reallie love ice cream.. I wanna hav thin mint ice cream.. Haha..
As usual I will tok about wat I'm feeling right now.. We tend to say a lot of "yes" and "no" during our daily life.. However, how much or should I say how many ppl "think" before they give an reply? Differnt ppl hav different view and opinion.. To some ppl, a yes or no is jus an answer, merely an answer.. but for me, on a few occasions it do make an impact on me especially when the answer was "no".. haha.. Sometimes when friends asked me sth, logically I should say "yes" but sth to avoid complications or watever reason, i tend to say "no".. I didn't thought of the feelings for that person but now that realise, a answer "no" can be saddening, disappointing perhaps at extreme cases dejecting.. I will try to give an ideal answer when I answer a question on next occasion..
the answer "no" or "dun wan" or "nah" or " dun need" by u on 1 occasion make me felt bad.. when I got the answer, suddenly I felt a rush of blood flowing out of my cardio-vascular system to the surrounding which caused me to feel souless for tt veri moment before I could speak anything.. I know it's a unwanted feeling.. an unwanted feeling....
For my case, I dunno Y, while listening to the mp3 during my home few tears roll out of my eyes.. I wiped it and when I listen to another song which had an impact on me, a few tears flow again..
Word of the day-- deja vu Defination: sense tt one is remembering something though experiencing it for the first time
I tend to hav deja vu....
i lit my sky--
Wednesday, October 11, 2006 ;
2:01:00 AM
There's one chinese proverb or idiom or watever which I hear quite often (ni suan na gen cong) Ture, this is wat I'm feeling now.. I'm not worthy of being mention, not worthy to fall in love,not worthy of a lot of things.. Right now, i'm just feeling like a wandering soul who's trapped in the deep tunnel at somewhere of this world.. This feeling is unexplainable yet unbreakable.. Maybe I jus need some chocolate.. Some Ice cReam to lighten up my life a little..
i lit my sky--
Tuesday, October 03, 2006 ;
1:07:00 AM
what's the bestway for curing EMO.. Some friends told me that it's to eat a lot. But today it's useless to me, I already had 5 meals today.. Some friends told me that I will feel better if I drink excessively.. However I see the cons rather than the pros when doing tt.. Maybe I will feel more miserable if I drink. Well some friends told me that it's to go out.. I reallie agree with him. Most of the time we only feel EMO when we are at home, late at night. But I dun wanna hang out late at night.. I wanna stay at home and do the things that I wan.. Well, someone also told me that by logging in to msn, U will feel EMO too.. Haha.. Crtainly, I agree to this to an extend.. still no solution to my problem.. sleep is not the enzyme which can digest my problem.. What should I do? What is the next step tt I should do? I wanna get out of this situation.....
i lit my sky--
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12:43:00 AM
Life is reallie like a roller coaster.. Sometimes u will be at the top of the world enjoying that moment of happiness whereas sometimes u will be thrown down from somewhere high to the ground which will make u feel miserable, yr heart shattering.. Ignore wat's I'm saying.. At this moment, I'm feeling EMO.. Certainly, I dun wan to feel this way.. I wan a life.. A life without the comapanion of the 3 letters, 2 syllables word-EMO. Maybe I will be abandon in the drain of loneliness till someone put me out from that drain..
*I miss squash.. squash.. squash....
i lit my sky--
